torture porn 2/30

I want to get into torture porn
I have never seen one of those movies
but I am sure I dont need to
my head writes its own script in rape scenario hedony
it includes a lot of black latex
duct tape
a horse crop
and a lot of “no. please. stop.”
fuck safe words
I want to bleed
fuck handcuffs
I am into piano wire
fuck spankings
get a god damn paddle
cuz I may have never seen Saw 3
but I doubt its gonna give me any new ideas

I want to make snuff films
but I dont just want to pick up some whore
watch you cum on her tits
so I can meet her herpes riddled face with a bat
fuck it! dig into her after we finish her off
let me watch as you squeeze from her
the last bits of warmth
that last tall boy could afford
Let us cut the sin from her eyes
and identity from her fingertips
lay her to rest in shallow rio waters
then do it again the next day
but this time with a goat
admonishing animal abuse adultery
that achieves more hate mail
than the michael vick fan club

I want to be a stripper for a week
and not a nice one
an alameda stripper
covered in dollars and warm beer spittle

I want to be your high school english teacher
who would rather end up in prison
than deny herself another
justin beiber look a like

I want to be the pretty pin up
squeezed into corset confines
who will twist my hourglass in any pose
just for another flash of the bulb

I want to be hosed down in the garden
your sadomasochist demigod.
Your homemaking whore

I want to be able to pull my self over
this evolutionary fertility zone
that plagues my mind as simple
passionate lust
dirty mind tricks
philosophical fantasies

Because….

If I thought about saving the world
as much as I think about satan worshiping sex
we would be living on the moon by now

if I thought of how to be a better mother
as much as I think of ways
to break into your house and suspend myself from the ceiling
I would be a Teresa

fuck, if I actually fucked as much as I think about fucking
you would be dead from exhaustion and I would be happy
i’d also be starving, sleep deprived and broke.

But fuck…
it dont mean
I wont try to get us there
and it dont mean
we cant try new things
these things
all things
anything
but anal.